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It's pretty evident, but on the off-chance you hadn't noticed, I've not been around much of late.
Of course, I've got a lot of excuses and some actually legitimate reasons. And actually, to be fair, I was around towards New Year's but I felt like doing a New Year's post seemed like a bit of a cliche..as well as a thing I've already done, to be entirely honest. So I haven't honestly been on dA or doing much in the way of writing or work lately, really.
The main reason is that I've been really, really, really caught up in school, especially the musical I'm stage managing. But also school in general. And life too. The other main reason being I've been practicing driving in order to pass my drive test, meaning I spent a whole lot of time since winter break ended driving my mom places whenever I wasn't in class or otherwise engaged in schoolwork, which gave me very little spare time to actually do any kind of writing or art, or spend any time really browsing this site. (Oh, speaking thusly, I did pass my test last week and do now have a license.)
And what all this means is that I'm mostly just frustrated at my lack of involvement in art of any kind. But have no fear, children, for I have lots of words left to write, and maybe even some adventures coming worth documenting. In any case, I just thought I'd give a general update and perhaps post something here for everyone so no one thinks I died in the interim between November and present.
Anyways, I really ought to get some sleep and all, so good night everyone.
Of course, I've got a lot of excuses and some actually legitimate reasons. And actually, to be fair, I was around towards New Year's but I felt like doing a New Year's post seemed like a bit of a cliche..as well as a thing I've already done, to be entirely honest. So I haven't honestly been on dA or doing much in the way of writing or work lately, really.
The main reason is that I've been really, really, really caught up in school, especially the musical I'm stage managing. But also school in general. And life too. The other main reason being I've been practicing driving in order to pass my drive test, meaning I spent a whole lot of time since winter break ended driving my mom places whenever I wasn't in class or otherwise engaged in schoolwork, which gave me very little spare time to actually do any kind of writing or art, or spend any time really browsing this site. (Oh, speaking thusly, I did pass my test last week and do now have a license.)
And what all this means is that I'm mostly just frustrated at my lack of involvement in art of any kind. But have no fear, children, for I have lots of words left to write, and maybe even some adventures coming worth documenting. In any case, I just thought I'd give a general update and perhaps post something here for everyone so no one thinks I died in the interim between November and present.
Anyways, I really ought to get some sleep and all, so good night everyone.
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Happy November!
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Well hello children!
Happy November 11th! And also, happy Veteran's Day!
So October was about the usual mix of busy and annoying. But I did get to start practicing driving a bit, and in the last week I've been driving a lot more so you know, we'll see how that goes.
Also, I had a couple of interviews this weekend with Target to see about working there and I'm honestly kind of hoping I don't get hired because I am mildly terrified of working in retail. But I had to apply somewhere and so I applied at the first place I could think of locally that has an online application. Go figure.
Also, yesterday, I got my hair cut, and re coloured, so I now I have short, red hair. And I'm really happy with it.
Seeing as it's November, I have a lot of friends whose birthdays are happening soon. And of course cold weather has sort of started to show up more. Thank goodness.
I've also been writing a little bit here and there so we'll see what comes of it.
I'll continue to update as things transpire.. And have a nice evening.
(Also I've been frustrated and upset all day and I'm really unclear as to why, so...)
-Stella
Happy November 11th! And also, happy Veteran's Day!
So October was about the usual mix of busy and annoying. But I did get to start practicing driving a bit, and in the last week I've been driving a lot more so you know, we'll see how that goes.
Also, I had a couple of interviews this weekend with Target to see about working there and I'm honestly kind of hoping I don't get hired because I am mildly terrified of working in retail. But I had to apply somewhere and so I applied at the first place I could think of locally that has an online application. Go figure.
Also, yesterday, I got my hair cut, and re coloured, so I now I have short, red hair. And I'm really happy with it.
Seeing as it's November, I have a lot of friends whose birthdays are happening soon. And of course cold weather has sort of started to show up more. Thank goodness.
I've also been writing a little bit here and there so we'll see what comes of it.
I'll continue to update as things transpire.. And have a nice evening.
(Also I've been frustrated and upset all day and I'm really unclear as to why, so...)
-Stella
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It is October now...
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Which means my favorite holiday is coming. Halloween.
It's my favorite because there has always been a guarantee I can play dress-up and get free candy. Therefore it has always been, and will always be, my favorite.
In other news, 18 doesn't feel different when I'm not thinking about it, but then someone asks my age and I go through a crisis of identity because I don't think I should be allowed to be an adult. At all.
So this is all a convoluted, roundabout way of saying, well...I have been writing lately. But I haven't been posting much lately, for various reasons. So yeah, I hope that I will be able to at least attempt to post more writings and things on this profile, because there is a part of my brain that keeps writing.
And then there's the part that keeps me from writing, so all my good ideas are floating away into the ether, probably to never return. So yeah, while I wanna write more and post more and generally just have people pay more attention to me because I'm lonely and that's how I write best, I have a huge roadblock. Which is that my brain just doesn't wanna cooperate.
So we'll see how this goes.
Happy October!
(PS I may be coerced into applying for work soon, so I may in fact get a job soon, which is intimidating and I don't know how so I literally need someone to help me through it the first time I do it, but if I do get a job, it means I will be less active here than I am now. Sorry for the run-on sentences, they just feel easier to write.)
It's my favorite because there has always been a guarantee I can play dress-up and get free candy. Therefore it has always been, and will always be, my favorite.
In other news, 18 doesn't feel different when I'm not thinking about it, but then someone asks my age and I go through a crisis of identity because I don't think I should be allowed to be an adult. At all.
So this is all a convoluted, roundabout way of saying, well...I have been writing lately. But I haven't been posting much lately, for various reasons. So yeah, I hope that I will be able to at least attempt to post more writings and things on this profile, because there is a part of my brain that keeps writing.
And then there's the part that keeps me from writing, so all my good ideas are floating away into the ether, probably to never return. So yeah, while I wanna write more and post more and generally just have people pay more attention to me because I'm lonely and that's how I write best, I have a huge roadblock. Which is that my brain just doesn't wanna cooperate.
So we'll see how this goes.
Happy October!
(PS I may be coerced into applying for work soon, so I may in fact get a job soon, which is intimidating and I don't know how so I literally need someone to help me through it the first time I do it, but if I do get a job, it means I will be less active here than I am now. Sorry for the run-on sentences, they just feel easier to write.)
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Thoughts of Birthdays
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Quick little thing to send out I guess. Because I've been very busy lately and wanted to chat really quickly before heading to sleep.
So anyways, hello darlings.
It's been a month or 2. I dunno, that sounds about right.
Anyways, I'm doing well. I'm in college though. Put it down as mildly nerve-wracking and leave it at that. College is not really...well it's not fantastic, off the walls amazing, but it's not terrible. I haven't made as many friends, nor are those friends as close as my many friends from high school. But they are friends nonetheless, which is important.
My social anxiety is much higher of late, which is probably due to the new environment and lack of comfort in said environment.
Oh, I'm taking an intro to tech theatre course, and enjoying it so far, pretty much. And have already had classes cancelled due to illness, which confuses me a bit.
Oh yeah, in a week it's my birthday. I'm not really the type to ask for stuff, but if you guys wanna send me odd dA gifts, I'd say feel free.
I'm not looking forward to it, in actuality. It's really scary and weird to me. Because I'll be 18. And while that isn't a big deal and I live with the notion that your age is simply all the previous ages under the layer which is your current one. And tonight I'm 12 and can't sleep because I'm nervous about my birthday but mostly because I'm much too busy writing to sleep.
So anyways, hello darlings.
It's been a month or 2. I dunno, that sounds about right.
Anyways, I'm doing well. I'm in college though. Put it down as mildly nerve-wracking and leave it at that. College is not really...well it's not fantastic, off the walls amazing, but it's not terrible. I haven't made as many friends, nor are those friends as close as my many friends from high school. But they are friends nonetheless, which is important.
My social anxiety is much higher of late, which is probably due to the new environment and lack of comfort in said environment.
Oh, I'm taking an intro to tech theatre course, and enjoying it so far, pretty much. And have already had classes cancelled due to illness, which confuses me a bit.
Oh yeah, in a week it's my birthday. I'm not really the type to ask for stuff, but if you guys wanna send me odd dA gifts, I'd say feel free.
I'm not looking forward to it, in actuality. It's really scary and weird to me. Because I'll be 18. And while that isn't a big deal and I live with the notion that your age is simply all the previous ages under the layer which is your current one. And tonight I'm 12 and can't sleep because I'm nervous about my birthday but mostly because I'm much too busy writing to sleep.
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Well.........
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Hello again! Seeing as it's been a while since i updated you guys, and I've been posting new words and stuff, I felt I ought to explain, at least a bit.
So, officially, I'm back. I would have been much more "back" a month ago, after I'd graduated and gotten through that last little bit of stuff, grad parties and whatnot. But after I got the vast majority of my shit together (graduating, registering for classes, getting my new school ID, sorting out financials, dealing with affection, and getting through it all) I was offered a new computer as a graduation present. So, I said, yes of course I'd like one considering my old one is falling apart and I'm headed into college and all. So naturally, we ordered it and I got to custom build it and then we had to wait for it to be built and shipped. Moral of the story: I waited a month for my computer because I'm dumb and I wanted really badly to have it before starting to really use this site again. Second moral of the story: I'm kind of silly and would have been back last week or even the past few days but I was on a mission trip last week when my computer showed up, and this week I've been recovering from the mission trip and Rocky Horror.
Anyways, this leads me to the update of: I graduated and walked and it was awesome and...now I have a diploma...? So essentially I don't know what to do with that information, which I think is 90% of why I'm going to college - because I still haven't processed the whole "going to be an adult with adult responsibilities and stuff" completely. The other 10% is the standard obligation felt based upon the society I happen to live in + the career I hope to pursue. But you know, it's mostly not knowing what else to do.
Uhm, and seeing as I've been gone doing things for a month, I guess I should say - I still don't have a job, I'm now registered for classes in theater and stuff, and also I spent the last week on a mission trip with a bunch of really attractive counselors and so overall I'm still on a bit of a bent about how attractive our counselors were this year for the mission trip(SSP). I'm also on a bit of a different bent on how attracted I kind of am to a boy I dated at one point in sophomore year for approximately 2 months. It's weird, I know. I'm still working on that one.
And how better to work this shit out than to listen to music loudly and write furiously, or go out with my friends and light off fireworks by an airport?
Either way, it's fun and gets me figuring things out on my own terms which is still significantly better than ignoring things entirely and having them come back when I least want them to be..
And for my final trick I'll mention that if religion and the like starts to pop up in poetry time and again, I'm working out my own spiritual journey and beliefs, so leave me to it. I promise not to bash anything too hard, and to be respectful as possible of any and all beliefs, as much as possible. Until they become toxic. Then I'll stop being respectful.
So yeah that's it babes. I feel like I'm talking to thin air, but I'll do it anyway because for some reason it always makes me feel better.
-K
So, officially, I'm back. I would have been much more "back" a month ago, after I'd graduated and gotten through that last little bit of stuff, grad parties and whatnot. But after I got the vast majority of my shit together (graduating, registering for classes, getting my new school ID, sorting out financials, dealing with affection, and getting through it all) I was offered a new computer as a graduation present. So, I said, yes of course I'd like one considering my old one is falling apart and I'm headed into college and all. So naturally, we ordered it and I got to custom build it and then we had to wait for it to be built and shipped. Moral of the story: I waited a month for my computer because I'm dumb and I wanted really badly to have it before starting to really use this site again. Second moral of the story: I'm kind of silly and would have been back last week or even the past few days but I was on a mission trip last week when my computer showed up, and this week I've been recovering from the mission trip and Rocky Horror.
Anyways, this leads me to the update of: I graduated and walked and it was awesome and...now I have a diploma...? So essentially I don't know what to do with that information, which I think is 90% of why I'm going to college - because I still haven't processed the whole "going to be an adult with adult responsibilities and stuff" completely. The other 10% is the standard obligation felt based upon the society I happen to live in + the career I hope to pursue. But you know, it's mostly not knowing what else to do.
Uhm, and seeing as I've been gone doing things for a month, I guess I should say - I still don't have a job, I'm now registered for classes in theater and stuff, and also I spent the last week on a mission trip with a bunch of really attractive counselors and so overall I'm still on a bit of a bent about how attractive our counselors were this year for the mission trip(SSP). I'm also on a bit of a different bent on how attracted I kind of am to a boy I dated at one point in sophomore year for approximately 2 months. It's weird, I know. I'm still working on that one.
And how better to work this shit out than to listen to music loudly and write furiously, or go out with my friends and light off fireworks by an airport?
Either way, it's fun and gets me figuring things out on my own terms which is still significantly better than ignoring things entirely and having them come back when I least want them to be..
And for my final trick I'll mention that if religion and the like starts to pop up in poetry time and again, I'm working out my own spiritual journey and beliefs, so leave me to it. I promise not to bash anything too hard, and to be respectful as possible of any and all beliefs, as much as possible. Until they become toxic. Then I'll stop being respectful.
So yeah that's it babes. I feel like I'm talking to thin air, but I'll do it anyway because for some reason it always makes me feel better.
-K
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